today`

after registeration i back to hostel...on9 from 8am sth till 2pm++

then sms while sleep` then really sleep ki le

wake up at 4sth i think

then someone knock my door..wan to repair the wardrobe

after tis i tidy my messy room and hav a bath and wash all my clothes`

then hav my dinner alone

oh god i really hate the life need to stay alone!!!no friends no relatives..just got me..haiz damn

and today really think a lot
human will always think a lot while alone??

i very scared now..really..

i scared i make a wrong decision for not going to matrix..duno why i got a bad feeling..felt scared..and wanna cry out loud..but after cry wat can do?still need to continue my life here..i freaky miss my daddy mummy..

daddy mummy call me to choose myself between matrix and utar..and finally i choose to come here..but now..i duno wat i'm thinking`duno how the lecturer here..duno tis duno tat..oh god

am i making a right decision to come here???

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end up by

dont think too much`

lazy

miss him`

10.22pm